saying goodbye.

I guess, this email, is used long ago. I wanna a new me, start afresh of myself. So.. Bye. :) 

Holiday mood

Right now having my holiday for god damn 1 & half month and I spend 1 month doing nothing because I want to accompany the boy after he ORD-ED. But instead I encourage him to go and find job because we seems to have problem with money. I not working & he's not working. Shit die. :( Then... 

Congrats boy for getting his job!

Had been really busy and tired this few days. Celebrates sissy's birthday, handling stuff and so on.. Really felt stressed up, alot. Met up with the boy today, or ysd? Whatever. for our 2 and a half years being together. It's a really meaningful day today because he gotten his dream job at marina bay and is standard chartered. But, I don't know, or should I say, I'm not sure how do I feel... 

The boy's birthday celebration

 

Celebrated the boy birthday on exact date, 15 September! Happy boy. All I want you to know that is I love you and willing to do whatever it takes to make you happy. :) Surprises, treats, scrapbook.. Treated the boy

Happy ORD day, my boy!

Happy ORD day for boy today & happy birthday to the boy on 15 sept! This is part of the boy's present for his birthday. Ohkay, I know is simple, but then I had give him alot more to remember for this 2 years and bought him many gift this few months, so decided to give something simple jiu hao. Don't say I no good k! Finally, is like a finally, all this is over... 

你快乐吗？想代替你回答。

Was really busy this few weeks and really lazy to update anything anymore. But today since so free & I went garden by the bay again. Nonono, this time I went w mammy! Since she has been pestering me that she want to go. So brought her there to walk. :)

I wish I'm much more better.

Feel so badmood enough this few days. Treat parents lunch this afternoon. Though I can't do anything about it, but at least I treat them k. Wait I work le then give them money. Poor enough now. :( Lots of things is happening, which makes me want to leave this home. Isn't they ain't love me enough or anything okay. But .. Speechless. 

2d1n stayover

Happy 2 years 5 monthsary, my love. 

Guilty, I'm sorry.

Had been working die this few days. No, should be only 3 days, yet my guiltiness is maximum that I ain't able to accompany my daddy mammy. :( Sorry daddy mammy for not being filial and bring you all out when you are on leave and spent time working. Shall bring them out this sunday to eat whatever they want. Ysd met up with the boy for dinner then headed back quite early because guilty of leaving parents at home. Today after work went to eat buffet with awesome then headed back with them. On the way back was talking with abel about my family. Perhaps, is time to bring the boy into my family... 

I'll wait, wait another 3 years, for you to fulfill all your dreams.

This is my dream, my wish. 

Having him for almost every single day for this 2 week because he clearing his leave before he ORD! Like a finally you know? Had waited for 2 years, 2 YEARS!!!! Kcan, some people might think that, '2 years only what, what big deal. Without him will die meh?' & blah blah blah. If you really know me, you know that i'm someone that is super duber dependent girl before I met him. SUPER to a point that I threw temper without him a day. Cried like mad when he told me he received his army letter when we are together for not even 1 month. Can you seriously imagine? I cried, i threw temper.. 

1 more month to go..

Had been quarreling with the boy this few days and he's damn irritating. Kept on saying words that makes me cry. Seriously. Last mon suppose to headout happily w him, end up he say things that hurt me and makes me cry. Head back & ask abel out & chitchat w him, makes me feel so much better! Maybe abel is a guy, that why he knew how boy treats me. All people thought that he'll be angry w me for being drunk during zann's birthday, but end up he din't angry but worried about me after I met him. Told abel those words he said that makes me cried and he said boy is trying to make me angry so he will feel happier. Seriously, why guys are like this! I admit I'm weak towards the boy, never can be strong in front of him. ARGH. 

Never get enough of you.

Bought new love again today. HEHE. Canon a3400! Pray hard I don't regret k. Thursday went lunch at olivia with a bunch of crazy ppl. HEHE. Do FYP with them awhile before heading off to meet the boy & murf for dinner! Had pasta mania for dinner & so awkwardly that I can feel murf is trying to give in to me because I choose since Idk what they want to eat. LOL! Friday went school for evaluation for advisor & done with everything! WOOHOO. FYP, i gonna get rid of you! 

Like we used to

Happy birthday to this beloved girl on the 26 July! Went to MBS with them to gather and to celebrate her birthday. Drink drank drunk. Totally dead drunk. Damn sorry that I make dirty Justin's jacket, need all of them to take care of me & help me! Awkward die can. But lucky is them lah. HEHE. Damn lucky got abel & sihao to call my bf to tell him don't worry. 

I believe...

Celebrated zann's birthday ysd at school and pranked at her. HEHE. After school went to find the boy & study bpm at his house. Went to parkway to eat my twofatmen! Sweetie boy to carry my heavy laptop bag after telling him I had gastric. HEHE. Have been talking to him about so many things like a again!

Prove to me how much you love me

Started of July, everything have been changing. What we are doing now, is always for our future. I knew all my wait will worth it, when the day comes, the days when i'm totally yours.

Bored weekends

Bored die at home. Ysd went to nanny's house to celebrate her 83th birthday & good news is, I'm my cousin's sister for her wedding. Awesome or what! Never be 'sister' before during wedding. Of cause uh, she's more close with me than my own real-blood sister. I stayed over at her house when I'm young, and even when I'm in secondary school life. HEHE. Can't wait for november to come. Must slim down even more in order to be awesome! :D 

You & I = PERFECT

Currently at the boy's house alone without the boy waiting for him to be back. Awkward die me. Worried myself will be a burden. Thanks to boy lah. Say meet me end up bookout late. TSK. Had work today at bedok fengshan primary school so went to his house first. ARGH. He seriously last warning! :( 

Fun weekend

Quarreled with the boy on friday afternoon and everytime make me cried & damn angry. Seriously sia! Said breakup but friends around me sure know, 'aiya, next day SURE ok back.' KCAN AH, thanks all! Went to rebond when i'm angry. :( But I'm happy w it! Saturday went out w him and he give me a 8 gb SD card w wireless & going nomnom sushi tei soon as his sorry gift. Hiakhiak.

Straight 2 months more to the boy's ORD!

Seriously is really straight 2 more months to the boy's ORD! Can't wait to 14 sept! Can celebrate the boy's birthday plus can celebrate his ORD! Awesome life. Though he going to study for 3 years. :( Sad me.

Awesome week

Had a awesome week ever since last friday starts. Went to meet the boy on friday for dinner, then headed home early cause going malaysia on sat! Then headed to malaysia on sat to sun, kept on have dinner with the boy till i alr adapt to having him w me for dinner! Jialat, it seems like i turning dependent again. SHIT! Headed to work ysd night at mediacorp. Awesome experience, but quite awkward though, bought my new babe today & have lunchcumdinner w caiting! :D

2 months & 2 weeks more for ORD.

Straight 2 months & 2 weeks for the boy ORD. Like a finally you know? I have been waiting for this day ever since we have been together. When we first met, become friends, fall in love, be together, & his time wasn't much for me. Idk is it better when he had his army delayed from june to sept is good one or a bad one. The 2 years, doesn't get any shorter, it is really damn tough for me at 18 years old, to adapt him going army when he's 20. Imagine when I was relying on him all along, suddenly there is no one to rely on. Tough enough, but still i make it till now. 

Weekend without the boy

A weekend without the boy. But spent it with his sis & my gfs plus family. HEHE. Met boy on friday & headed back his house to wait for him to change but end up quarreled with him. -.-

We all moved on, didn't we?

Mood felt so fucked up this few days. & this few days have been trying to tolerate my temper towards bestfriend, closefriend, friends. I don't know why, but then.. You felt it worst, extremely worst, when you saw your used to be best friend straight in your face yet, it feel like he/she is so fucking far away from you. 

Happy 2 years 3 months anniversary, my boy!

Happy 27 monthsary with the boy & 2 years 3 months anniversaries! :D Boy is guilty that his studies had to occupy next month saturdays for a few hours so he agree to bring me to ecp to celebrate! HEHE. Happy die me. 

那时都还很幼小的我们。

Had a bad day in school today! Seriously that cheena really last warning. Keep on insisting when she's wrong sia. Jitao dulan die sia. Almost a limit that I gg to throw the marker & ask her do herself & I going to do my own thing. But have to tolerance because of my grades! Keep on complaining & give black face. HEHE. After school went to do FYP awhile & headed to town with caiting! Had a great laugh! :D Headed home & msg with LWS to update our life!

Cuddle the night away

Stayover at boy's house last night because mammy went oversea! HEHE. Headed to meet boy after his bookout & went back his house to put his bag waited for him to prepare & his mom went over to give me a slingbag she bought at JB! So happy me. HEHE. Showing off to boy that I had a new bag he don't have. HEHE.

Getting used to it.

Wanna go some beach places just alone together. :( Thought that boy will be booking out tonight, but instead, last minute he din't bookout. Sometimes, I just get used to all this feelings ever since he is in army.

我们的未来

Head to seminar w boy for his trading talk. Gg cry sia! Boy was listening, I'm at the edge of going to sleep. Hehe. Tired die. After seminar slightly threw temper because patience limit is up. Went to eat yummy yummy claypot rice but boy ate 1 & 1/2 bowl. Plus mine! Muahaha! Went PC show saw zk & bought my earpiece! Like a finally! Head back home & rest awhile & playing pokemon w boy. Keep on losing him. Tskkkkk.

When I'm just with you.

Had 2 weeks of holiday & I'm seriously don't feel like getting back to school next week with tons of UTs. :( Had Caiting, Kelly & Louis over my place to do our coding for FYP. Hehe. Do till half end up playing & doing nails for them. Ain't me goooood? :D Send them off to bus stop & headed to post office to get my item. Walked back home & bathed & rest. HEHE. Had been playing pokemon non-stop & stucked. Shall ask boy to help me play on friday! :D 

So lazy already. :( KBYE.

Malaysia trip w the boy!

Has been going out with mammy else with my girls or go swimming, jogging and weekend occupied by boy. HEHE. Went swimming on last monday while boy watching me swimswim because he forgotten to bring his trunks. TSK. Don't know real or fake one? Tuesday forgotten what I did? Wednesday went swimswim again alone & thought that boy got nightout, but he was too tired so asked him to stay in camp. :) Thursday went for my dental appointment and friday went boy's house & slacked & had nihon mura at tamp. HEHE. Ysd went malaysia with the boy! :D

Sissy pregnant! :D

Have been busy for the past few days, schooling, planning K's birthday, going out w K&C & etc. Tired muchzxc. Today went to bugis w mammy to meet sissy & bro-in-law. Good news that sissy told us is she's pregnant! Mammy & I was still telling sissy :'Don't joke lah. Serious anot?!' End up she really got baby! Happy die us. HEHE. Especially me! HEHE. 

Busy week!

Had went for temp work on wed & thurs since I had no school because of the graduation. Like a fun only. Had work as a teacher as enrichment programme. Is so tiring teaching those primary 1 & 2 kids when they don't even listen! But great that is still manageable. :D Wed went to WWW with C & K for K celebration of her birthday. When we almost going to buy ticket, someone give us free tickets! :D Happy max. Went in & played w them! Crazy much. HEHE. Played till 4 plus & went off to chompchomp. Went to rooftop play as we're too early. HEHE. Ain't we cute?

Happy for myself! I found a 2 days job as a part-time art teacher at mayflower primary school on wednesday & thursday! This is my goal all along & I gotten what I want! 2 days I also happy k! :D Just wanna share this big big joy. :)

Ysd boy is sweet, before i went to sleep, he msg-ed me 'My life goal is to see you happy and safe!' Ain't he sweet at times? Though at first I bought a Gucci wallet for him and he dint appreciate it, right now, once his hand is slightly dirty, he die also won't touch his wallet. HEHE. Sometimes, i wonder why he so annoying, but sometimes so adorable! :D HEHE. But that's the boy I love isn't it? There is once, I was too heartbroken & angry at him, so I chatted w one of my bestfriend, & she told me, 'You want to leave, but you can't, isn't it?' After this sentence, I cried. Not because I can't leave, is because I love him so I choose not to.

When you love someone, you'll never leave, no matter how hard the situation is, never leave. 

Nightmares

Had nightmares last night. Seems so true & realistic. Cried in my dream, and wake up with tears. I don't know why too. Msg-ed boy about it & fallen asleep back. HEHE. Woke up & had his msg. Cutie boy. :) 

Stayover!

Awesome thing is to stayover at his house! Got supper, plus can talk till sleep! Headed over to cck on friday afternoon to meet boy & trained to toa payoh to eat our dimsum buffet! Suddenly feel so fat back again. Thank baby! :( Headed back home after buffet since nothing to do and put our bags, bathed again due to the super duper hot weather and headed out to tamp for our movie! 

Days without mammy. :(

Bored to a maximum when mammy went oversea. Dislike her going oversea. :( One thing great is I can go out anytime I want and stayover at boy's house. Bad thing is, I'm lazy to cook so I have nothing to eat. This few weeks is still being crazy over losing weight. Kept on eating vegetable ONLY instead of a meal itself. Had been going gym, swimming and jogging this few weeks. LOL! 

Having you is the best days ever.

Boy booked out on thursday because of his bad toothache. Poor boy! Had fun with him this few days! Nothing will be better than having him around me.

Happy Holiday!

Spent my full day w my precious boy! Tired max. Woke at 7.45 and prepared. Head out at 8.30 & reached safra at 10. Sucha long time to reach. Lucky boy din't nag! :D Went swimming & swam 8 laps together w him. HEHE. Is much more happier to swim w him than swimming alone! Choked a few times and this boy is worry death and keep on pausing his swimming session to see if i'm alright. HEHE. 

You jump, I jump, Remember?

Shall we just hold on, & never let go of anyone of our hand, no matter what happen, no matter is out of anger or even words, don't let go..

Relationship

This gonna be a super long post. Mind me, ohyea. 

In the midst of dieting.

Past 2 weeks has been dieting, jogging & swimming like a crazy. Eat too much during internship. Thanks to that 2 guys keep on eating fast foooood! Now have to keep on jogging & swimming, gym like mad. TSK. 

Thank you, really.

Thankyou boy, for all your effort, everything. 

School days

Back to school days again. Had 3 days of lesson & is quite okay for me. Even though that I miss work more than studying. :( I miss so many people that used to be around me for that 7 weeks. But I will adapt to the new environment soon right? Everytime had to try to open up to people around me, & when I get used to them, we had to separate. WTF is this. TSK. :( Maybe during secondary school days, I stick to the same friends I had for 4-5years that why right now, i still had the same concept of thinking. :( 

School starting tmr.

School is starting tomorrow. A lil paranoid for me again, need to adapt to the environment again. Like a sian sia. Boy booked in ysd night & I'm bored ever since I went home after last met him. Don't know what will happen tmr for a new environment in school. But whatever lah, at least got know de in class can alr. :D Class will be better than rotting at home right? Tsk. 3 more days in school & I'll got a long holiday. HEHE. 

Getting over w those emptiness.

Each & everytime something I enjoyed much ends, I tend to get upset & really feel the emptiness in my heart. I don't know why, but I know I will get over with it, very soon. I just hate the fact that things will never be the same anymore.

End of internship.

Finally internship ends! It mark the end of my internship & my life in hiSoft. Learnt so much & experience so much by them.

Marvel’s The Avengers coming up!

Continuing with the epic big-screen adventures started in "Iron Man," "The Incredible Hulk," "Iron Man 2," "Thor," and "Captain America: The first Avenger," "Marvel's The Avengers" is the superhero team up of a lifetime! When an unexpected enemy emerges that threatens global safety and security, Nick Fury, Director of the international peacekeeping agency known as SHIELD, finds himself in need of a team to pull the world back from the brink of disaster. Spanning the globe, a daring recruitment effort begins from here!

Waiting damn long for this show! Is coming up on 1st May & I wanna watch it! Watched Iron Man I, Iron Man II, thor & captain america which is the latest show. Now up is Marvel's The Avengers & then is spider man! Super in love with iron man & captain america!

Both of them is damn hot & is so exciting while watching Iron Man & Captain America! Went shopping & found this mask together with boyfriend! Cutest ever photo! LOL! Another 19 days to go before this show is officially up! Please watch it on the theatre! It will be much more exciting & awesome ttmzxc!

People please catch Marvel’s The Avengers in cinemas this 1 May 2012 and like the Official Marvel's The Avengers Singapore Facebook Page and subscribe to Marvel Singapore YouTube Channel! 

Thank you! :D 

Up & Down

I want to love you like the way you love me. 

Let me be your ONE&ONLY.

We nearly broke up, maybe we did, maybe we don't. I want you to cherish my love, & I will.

Keep me safe.

Had extremely fun today with boyfriend! Though he is very irritating. :/