There is always something in me that love you.

I always believe that words never believe that person, or should i say, I will never believe that person, AGAIN. It's really hard for me to trust someone, fully. Who does, right? It's always that I used to trust someone that fully, end up making me heard something that said out that wasn't what I want. But anw, this person, don't exist anymore on EARTH. But maybe the hatred I had in it? It's quite a saddening when you trusted and loved someone so much, the one you regret you didn't treat them well when they exist, now they're gone, you regret. I used to, but not after what I was told.

我不贪心，最好的满足，是你给的在乎。

Had my last understanding test 1 today! YAY! Means i can play hard! But still got another 1 more understanding test coming up on december. Still thinking want to take MC for that day not. :( Shall see my understanding test 1 result first! Boy went to his fieldcamp today & makes me miss him so much. Lucky he coming back tonight later on for tmr cos course! 

To trust, to hope, to endure whatever comes..

My family! Though not whole family, but counted as half! Cause my kl relative never come take take photos! Well, there is always next time! :D Had fun in the wedding! Keep on running around & played with all the kids or should i say the babies! Headed to pub after that & also st james power house!

Happy 1 year 8 months!

Has been studying all the way once i reached home. Like a cui. Having business finance ut tmr! Was damn funny when i was doing it online with my classmates. Seriously i regret taking business finance, but i didn't regret i knew so many awesome friends in business finance! :D School sucks because I think didn't had enough sleep because of ut & assigment. TSK! Sucha burden! After school headed to edna's house to visit cutiepie & had chitchat session with edna. Love cutiepie! Forever so cute. But once he cry, i ask qi or edna come alr. TSK. Seriously i hope some guy got some control about themselves! Like a seriously siaaaaa! TSK! Brought dinner home & study! :D 

Happy 1 year 8 months, prettaye boy. Love you manyzxc. We shall last forever! Sorry this week only can meet you on friday cause i was busy on weekends. I'm real sorry. We got alot of days together on dec! 

I'm blissed enough.

Dear had his fieldcamp today & I'm all alone for the day! Nvrmind, xiguan jiu hao. I gonna get this for the next 10 more months! 10 more months I can say byebye to his army life & my army life with him! Like what I always yearn to be! Happy! End school & headed to marina square alone today because bu yao trouble c&k to pei me go there all the way just to get my contact lense. Scare baby tmr don't have bookout then cannot pei me go take, so go take alone. Went to bookfest to walk! Seriously miss baby go there w me & reading those r/s books together. Then pointing out those faults we did & making each other understand. Like a cute. Then he will suddenly pop out behind me whenever we went missing in action. While reading, read till one 'Don't treat people the way you don't wish to be treated. Because you'll be one of them you hate.' So true! TSK. Also helped sihao looked for his book but cannot find! BURDEN! :p Stayed till 645 & siam back home already. Blah! Damn tired! Shall sleep sooooon! YAY! Gotten my contact lense & baby is back at midnight. Hope will get his msg soooon. 

I miss those days..

Omfg, now is 1.16am yet i'm not asleep yet. Like a ... Shall be civilized abit. TSK. Dearie having his fieldcamp tmr means tmr one whole day i won't be getting his msg! Nvrmind, hope thursday he able to bookout & meet me! I want to get my lense! 3 more uts & I can happy go lucky & have my holidays! Can't wait for so much event coming up on 16, 17, 19, 23, 24, 27-30, 31dec & 1st jan. Like a happy! :D I miss those days where he forever calling me before he went for his fieldcamp. After 6 months.. Hope he'll be okay. Watching abt you're the apple of my eye. Seriously laugh die me! Can't wait for holidays to come & dear promised for holiday trip every year! Hope to go taiwan next year w him. Must save money from iep & also my bursary next year! Tada! Shall sleeeep.

Stupid boy! Know you early in the morning will stalk my blog. Please stay safe & don't do wrong thing kay! Love you manyzxc. 1 year 8 months in 2 days. Shall sleeeep! 

情爱的, 我多么幸运人海中能够遇见你

No school today but i headed to school just to help my 2 crazy girls with their assignment! :D Then after that headed to cwp to eat nicey nicey food! Love it alot sia. The table like a cui. Keep on joking around. Laugh die me! :D Went to shop at cotton on awhile & headed back home after tabao-ing for mammy & kor. Seriously that food make me so full! :D I want again! Exchanged letters with K, & seriously make me laugh like mad. Hahaha! K, i love you k. Don't beat me. Dear having his fieldcamp tmr after 6 months of status. Please take care of yourself & drink more water kay! Hope can see you on thursday. :( *PRAY PRAY* Tada! I'm so happy today!

Some kiddy mini problem recently! But is okay! :D Finally done w assignment! Happy & off w it! Can't wait my trip for dec! 

I'm not princess, but it's you who make me one.

Was watching Selina's wedding on 31 Oct. Posted a few video on my facebook. Sort of like, she's just like me. Someone who love to cry, someone that scare of pain, someone that want to be strong & someone that had 2 girlfriend beside me. The only thing is, i'm not sure if this guy of mine, will stay throughout for me not. :) I know he will. Maybe he don't, maybe he will. I'm just afraid one day he might give up when he can't accept the worst of me. Wait till that day come then decide. LOL!
Don't read more, if you can't accept what is in me.

Nothing will be better than you.

I don't boost, i don't praise. But i'm glad that i had you. That all! :) Love you manyzxc. I can't promise you forever, but i can promise you, as long as you don't let me go, i won't. There is so much & too much for us to do. Things had been changing rapidly. But we will make it through. I know we will. 2 years very soooon. I hope my iep won't fall on saturday which ruin our day. Well, thanks for being there when things happened around me. MUACKX. So much thing to do on coming dec & our march! 17 dec triple 3 buffet, 19 dec uss, 23 dec christmas party w your friends, 24 dec my birthday, 27-30 dec genting trip, 30 dec hj birthday, 31-1jan, i'm gonna stay w you. Say goodbye to our past, say hi to our future. :)

PS: Stop saying everything you bought now is my birthday present! It's not! If you want, please wrap yourself up into ribbon pig & deliver to my house. TYVM. :D

My prettaye 2 girlfriends. Familyship.

We said before, to exchange letters with each other. With this 2 girls in my poly life. I exchanged with C today because K didn't wrote yet. Shit her. :p I nearly teared when i read it. I don't know is joy or is touched. But then, I'm glad i had them. Well, we only get to know each other on the first year, second semester. It wasn't that great when i first think of knowing them. But really don't expect that this 2 girls, are the girls that is most important to me in my life now. No matter where i go, which girl i know as friends, there will never have a feeling that how i felt when i'm with them. This is our familyship. When we quarreled, we said sorry. When we insult, we don't meant it or get angry. When we threw temper, we forgive each other. When we are angry, sad, depressed, happy, we go through everything together. This is the familyship that i yearn for, always. It's always there. Sometimes, i do knew that they might feel that I took this familyship as shit, but i hope they knew, i really treat them real, down in my heart. I knew at times, i can't express my emotions out to them, which make them feel helpless. I'm sorry. I'll try to open up more. My girls. Which is forever. 

There is forever familyship in us, right?

Being loved by you, others seems to be nothing.

Once in a lifetime, there is always be people who leave you, or even who stay throughout. You can't able to stop them from leaving you. All you need is to show them that even if they leave you, you're capable of living better even without them. Sometimes, words are always hard to say out to the person who you love. It's really hard, to put down all your guards for a person and don't worry that they might leave you or even hurt you. It's really hard, to believe that, there is always someone that will be there for you each & everytime you did things that hurt them. It's really a bad habit of mine to distrust everybody that comes near me. All they need to do is to break down all those wall & even making me believe that they will stay throughout for me. 

原来被你喜欢的感觉，真的很幸福。

Busy weekend today. Was doing my coding & didn't talk with him much because I was busy concentrating on my assignment! Finally done! Sorry boy! I knew you understand! :) Boy went to cut hair & after he back i done finish alr! Happy! But boy went dinner with his family at expo & had dinner at home. After assignment went to download 那些年 de story book online. Anyone want it just get it from me kay! :D Read finish already! Kay lah, not really read all because i read the first few online. Sometimes, there is always regrets.. Byebi!

A day that changed part of us

I don't know how to describe today. Maybe it was awesome, maybe it was the worst part of me, maybe it was another step of us. Well, it takes one to know one. Woke up early in the morning at 8am & prepared & off to meet dear. End up he was slping like a pig. So it's my time to revenge! Called him up many times and shake him up till he pekchek. Hehehe. Who ask you did this to me when i'm sleeping! Wait for him to prepare & headed to expo! Happy me! I'm so hungry but ate the testing food till i'm full! Brought some home & slacked. 

Watched Puss In Boots online & is awesome! Puss is so cute! But like a sad that, everytime Puss tried to trust Humpty, end up Puss will always kana betrayed by the one he trusted most. End up, the one who loses everything is Humpty. HAHA! Went off to changi point after i ate my gastric medicine! Dk why keep gastric again! Spoiler! Headed there to eat manhattan & then went to expo food fair & brought mammy things then head homeeeeeee! Somethings cock up & makes me damn sad & felt damn speechless! Not boyfriend, but is myself. 

But, it's another stages that happened which make me felt that, no matter how worst the situation is, he'll never leave. Right? Though i still feel damn upset about it. But it brought us to another step closer. I hope so? Well, everything is so unpredictable. & fuck my own too. Not my life. Because my life is too perfect to have people to love me. Fuck my day then. Goodbye!

Best love, one&only love, sweetest love, cutest love, teasing love, stupid love, crazy love. I got you, & everything seems so perfect, even at my worst. I got nothing else can said.. 

被你喜歡過，就感覺別人沒那麼喜歡了。

Can't sleeeeeep! Dieeee! Today(Yesterday) in school is awesome, because I had awesome classmates. I mean, for some only uh. Best out of the best, same team with fath & sihao. Love it! They both do work & they helps & joke around too! Though i not so understand today problem, but i'm happy! After school went off w Abel & meet boy! First time boy communicate w my friend! :D I'm so happy or even vvv happy that boy can communicate w my bestfriend. You know what feeling is the best? Is when your boyfriend communicate well with your bestfriend. Idk why, but is true. :D Drop off at bishan & abel continue to town. :) 

Headed to Old Airport Road & boy eat his prawn noodle & I eat my beancurd! Forever not sian one! Love it ttmzxc! Help Edna buy tooooo! Heavy die me. Saw shihui that '矮冬瓜' there! Kay lah, i also not that tall. Then went home because too heavy liao. :( Lazy walk. I can't wait time to reach 8am! Seriously, i want tmr to come sia! TSK! Gonna sleep sooooon! Recently boyfriend so sweet, dk why. Got some reason. Hmmm. 

1 year 8 months next weeeeeek! I love you, nyl, my boyfriend, my future husband, my future kid's daddy. :D

All I want is just to be yours.

Ysd was a bad day. A bad one. Quarreled with baby. I'm sorry for everything, i'm sorry for hurting you, i'm sorry for wanting to let go, most of all, i'm sorry that i didn't told you i just want you to pull me back when i said i'm leaving. Didn't sleep well last night because we quarreled. Well, this show never quarrel overnight, it hurt more than anything. Talk things out today & i'm glad each & everytime, i felt so much relieved, so much.. 

Went for my braces appt & decided to put pink & darkblue! So many people said it's prettaye! :D Happy. Headed to school after that & felt so tired. Felt a lil pissed because my braces starts to hurt & i was abt to threw temper back again. End school & had ut then head back home. Headed to lot1 for dinner & went to see hamster! Just to realize that the same hamster still running up & down again like what me & baby saw ysd! So damn cute lah! Me & mammy was laughing non-stop. Told baby & he don't believe. TSK! Bad day has gone. I need happy day. 

All you need to say a word 'sorry' & all those unwanted quarrel will leave.. 

Seoul garden w my CGS

Hiakhiak! Here again. :P No school for the day & headed to school juse for exam. Basically just sucks okay! Quite okay lahh. Then bused to yishun w my cgs. Damn cute uh, we ran to bus stop just for the 169 & end up it spoilt in between the road. #wtf We got so suay not. Ysd 3 of us share one umbrella till wet, today bus spoilt. Dk tmr what will happen to we 3. :/ Hehe. Went to seoul garden & start our buffet time! Ate like alot & almost exploded. Full like dk what! Took pictures with polaroid! Prettaye prettaye! Rushed home because need buy dinner for my kor. Thanks to his chickenpox! Needa takecare of him. Afraid will kana again. Better not. Meet boy must 消毒一下 to prevent carrying kor's virus because boy haven kana! Headache! School tmr & headed to meet boy when he having his nightsout! Just simply sucks this few days! Leg dk give what bite, jitao got so many bites for no reason! :( Can't wait Dec to come. Nov is passing half. Another half to go & i'm happy! :D Byebi! Shall sleeeeep soooooooon. :) 

If isn't you..

So damn long never update my blog. Omg. Also not long lah, only a few days. HAHA! Saturday headed to wedding. Spoiler sia, make me cannot go out with my boy. :( Not so fun but also still okay. All my same age cousin wasn't around! Make me so damn turnoff. Decide not to be pretty for wedding. But still i'm still prettaye! LOL! BHB! Having gastric, more worst that turnoff everything. 8 years later, it will be our turn, right? LOL!

11/11/11 ysd.

Spend my 11/11/11 half day in school and another half is spending with my precious baby! Headed to his house & wanted to go out eat, end up we drank his mammy cooked de soup till full, then decide to nua at home till 9 plus & head tamp eat abit. Done my rj & quiz at his house before heading out! Nothing much thou. Wanted to bring baby to eat his yummy ramen when he booked out, end up was fully booked! I don't understand why so many people! :( Spoiler! Shall bring him go next sat! Was calling him to guess when we're at bus to tamp & he was guessing like seriously all the food he like, but not ramen. DUMB OR WHAT! Hehehe. Cute max. Guess till correct & he's so happpy! I hope he was, right? My pig. Hehe. Went to walk awhile & headed to eat qiji popiah shared & ate prata! YUMMY! Then headed back because mammy is rushing me go help her take luggage. TSK. Having wedding dinner later on. Now is 12/11! Shall sleep really soooon. Meeting boy on sunday! :D

Boy gave me a sweetest gift on 11/11/11 11:11pm which is his kiss! Well, 这辈子，被你爱。下辈子，我们再继续。

那些年, 这些年。

Watched 'you are the apple of my eye' again. Is seriously like a nicest show i ever watch till i watch it for 2 times! the most happiest thing in a relationship is when a guy is courting you. You just afraid if he gets you, he will be too lazy to bother about you, isnt it? That is always what is the most fun & happy times in a relationship. There will always be some regrets in a relationship. Enough of watching it again. No matter what, the ending is not going to change, they will never be tgt. That will be the fact of a story. So much ppl, felt so much regrets for them, but the fact remains forever..

Cherish ppl who love or who we love.

School Days & Nightsout

School just basically had fun every module on webapp & business finance. Because tend to team with those people that I love to team with. :D They're fun & they'll never abandoned you aside to do their work. HAHA! Had lunch with C&K. Sound like CK tang. Whatsoever. Had a bad mood today because of insonmia last night. Felt so tired & extremely irritable. Who cares anyway. Had been niaming nonstop to dearie, girlfriends & classmate/goodfriend. Well, shall not care so much. Just don't cry when it happened. Well then, i got no comments on anything. So looking forward for friday, saturday & sunday! All those good time is coming. Can't wait to take many pictures with my cousins. :) Hope I can take many!

Readers! Just remember, don't judge someone by it cover. So just 'KEEP QUIET' & don't comment on others. Before judging people, know them first!

Insomnia

Insomnia ysd night & doing nothing. Fuck life. Hate can't sleep in the night. Why not just kill me. Felt so tired ttmzxc. I miss my boyfriend muchzxc. Can't wait later night and friday night to come. Sometimes, missing someone can kills. But growing up make you who you are. I no longer want to be the reckless and spoilt girl. Well, time to think. Dec is coming! Should smile, to enter another happiness.

Well, my past, my present, my future, i no need anyone to taught me or even told me what to do and what exactly happen. It's me, a kid, a teenager, and a adult. People grow up.

This seems so sad, but this is what every girls want. Often, pushing those love away, but wanting them to be yours. Blah, head out to edna's house to see lil rainer! Carried him while Edna & her mom is preparing out to some places. Cutie pie! See my twitter & will know why he's so damn cute! Keep on talking with him, christ & qi might think i'm crazy. Trying to communicate with a baby when he won't answer me. Maybe he will! Just that he can't talk yet. Hmmm. Maybe when he grew up, he might think '为什么这个阿姨一直跟我讲话的？' LOL. Imagine too much. Christ even call me go give birth one & play! OMG. Faint. Calling kid taking care of a baby. Where can! Though i love rainer so muchzxc! Went off when they're heading out. Thursday heading out with Edna they all with lil Rainer! Can't wait to talk to him again. Hehe.

Times & times, people around me are telling me that, my boyfriend is the best out of the best among all and I had a good boyfriend and his parents is also good to me too. Yea, his parents, is really good to me, i'm so lucky. Maybe my boyfriend was a good one, but his words sometimes do hurts. Maybe this is him that speak without knowing that hurt. That was him when I know him. But i didn't know that, the more i love him, the more it hurt me. Maybe this was in him. I hope he choked on his shitwords so that he will know how much it hurt. I was really lucky, that my boyfriend & his family was so nice to me after hearing so much story from other people. Sometimes, his sis will even call me not to angry with boy because of some reason that makes me really laugh. Well, all this really makes me feel i'm lucky enough even though boy had a insensitive heart. Sometimes really hope to knock him down and tell him how much it hurt.

Well, all this is 家务事, shall not expose much. This dec, going to genting with his family. I'm so excited & afraid that his parents will feel that me like a burden. After all, i'm not their child & i don't want to spend their money for my own meal & they even paid for my trip to genting that makes me feel guilty enough. I alr planned what should i do by right. Shall not think that much. I knew how my parent feel or even said, thus, i will know what to do when i'm out with boyfriend's family. Hope I won't do anything wrong! Boyfriend is sweet enough that he said he will never leave me alone in room at night to run to casino. Hehe. :) Can't wait for it then. Shall sleeep. This month, is a burden month. UTs, Assignment. Shall enjoy on Dec then. Bye peeps!

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