Another tough week for us

Is another beginning of a tough week. Boyfriend is going to fieldcamp next monday/tuesday. It has really like been a long time ever since he went for his fieldcamp. Like a kind of worrying for him. Dk how is he going to adapt to the 3 nights and also the 60km with 30kg fieldpack coming up.. 

Ruined

Wasn't happy today at all. Or should I say, today was 90% ruined. Idk why, but whatever it's, i just feel like crying whenever things heated up between us. He just, being so not serious at all. Blah.... But still it's him that i choose to love right? Bobian(No choice). I still love him. Whatever it's today, i doesn't want to say anymore. His words, seems to have a needle stabbing in me. Feel so fucking hurtful or maybe emo today. Shall stfu and go watch show. Bye peeeps. 

Whatever it's, he's my boyfriend, he's my future husband(Maybe or may not). I still love him even though his words hurts or he never try to understand me. Girls are hard to understand. Or maybe it's me who is the one that is hard to understand. I just feel so tired when he don't understand a single word i said or even taking my words seriously when i said it seriously. CONTRADICTING. Whatever shits today, i don't want think about it anymore. I hate it. '不是每一天都是开开心心的过的。有时候，还是会伤心难过。我只希望，他不会那么的白木，那么的笨而以，我就很开心了。真的好累，因为你不懂我的心。好沮丧，好累，好辛苦，好无阻。

I will be happy another day, i believe.. Only thing that makes me happy today is when we thinking of our future children name, seeing furniture together, planning what we want to put in our home. The jokes of 赖哈妈（癞蛤蟆）。男的叫赖家祥，女的叫赖家恩。But right now, i can't laugh at all. I can't be happy..

其实我一点都不开心，可是我知道，我不是每天都开心的，而你不是每天都会逗我开心的。我真的了解，可是，就是那么的难过而已。

Chu San!

Start of school already is like a sian. :( Ysd went to nanny's house then went to ahma's house. Gamble with cousin end up cousin lose. HEHEHE. Then weiwei korkor fetch me to mrt with his sport car! Like a boss sia! Hahaha! Then went to take bus to bb's house. Slacked & he sprained his neck earlier on. Keep on disturb him and turning his neck left and right! Damn funny! HEHE. K lah, not purposely to see you in pain de k! :D See I so good. Your wife. HEHEHE. Went back home at 11 plus. Like a miss him. 

Today woke up at 11 plus and went to prepare and headed off to school for my evaluation. Lucky still okay with it! After that went to do my card again at DBS with abel. Thanks for accompany me! Muahahaha! Headed back home after that & had my first lunch cum dinner! 2 more days schooling before weekends come again. #likeacui. I want more holiday! Miss my mr nai so muchzxc. Blah~! Byeeeeee! :D 

Being loved by you, is my happiness

Met my boy ysd(23/01/12) night because he's busy in the afternoon & I had dinner at home! So met him at tb once we're done with our dinner! :D When I met him, i was shocked why he looks so super duper ultra attractive with his half formal shirt on! Cannot take my eye off him. Like a seriously stupid sia me! Went up the escalator and suddenly he gave me a angbao. Shocked dk he give me for what & he said give me 压岁钱! Ain't he cute? Went to deposit my money and i was happily talking with him & deposit my money end up forgotten to take my card! Like a wtf! Went back but is gone, so called up posb that i lost it and they cancel the card for me! Got money inside also cannot use. #likeacui! Shall go posb bank on wed to take it! Went to walk awhile & bb went to play his game in arcade. See him play his soccer & went for our movie viral factor! Like a joke sia! We watch movie till half, bb was looking the couple beside us, so i asked him what happened. End up like a joke! Got live porn! Hahahahaha! But still continue watch our movieeeeeee! Like a nice! :D Love it! Jay Chou movie is forever so nice! :) Of cause still secrets nicest! HEHE. After show straight away both of us run to MRT like running for our life in darkest hour! Lucky can rushed for our last train. How I wish we got a car. Doesn't want motor. Fucking dangerous kkkkkk. I will never want to bet bb's life for this. Rather take mrt than he buying a motor. Though bb learning bikes now, even buy bike, bb said not gonna drive far but only furthest is bedok without highway. Muahahaha! Hai. Only way is I faster learn how to drive then get car from sis for new year! Like a long only.

Anyway, flooded with love today. :) Happy max kkkkkk. Shall meet bb tmr and slack at his house tmr! :) Happy 1 year 10 months anniversary with my beloved boyfriend cum future hubby! Hahahaha! Thanks for being so sweet sometimes even though your sweetest is once in a blue moooooon! :) But I really felt so much love from you! Never feel so happy before like what i'm having right now. But once i'm sad, no one make me so sad before. But right now I'm enjoying my happiness! So don't break it kkkkkk! :) It's a brand new year, did what we said, and never break it. I wanna maintain the happiness we had. HEHE. I did waited for 2 years, soon to be lah. Round up!! June, you'll be stay out for your studies, and sept, you'll be officially ORD-ED and I no longer had a army boyfriend! & there comes our real future. But, idk weather if our quarrels, our anger, our misunderstanding will lead us to break up in the future anot. I hope we will still be as strong and tough like last year. Though last year is a bad one, but I still enjoyed alot with you. We had a same personality, stubborn, wanna strive for what we want. This is us. & of cause, you promised me, after you stayout/ord-ed, you'll officially come my house. I'm still waiting. I don't want to be alone in this house, i want US. Lastly, happy 1 year 10 months, sweetiepie. 24's

Chinese New Year Resolutions!

#likeabored now because all people playing mahjong at my house & dajie & jiefu going to eat second round dinner with jiefu family! #likeacui. Leave me alone at home now fking bored like helllll! Tmr is chinese new year already! Prepare to take hongbao already? Muahahaa! Took 3 angbao already & big sis rise her pay again & her one month pay is $10k. #likeaboss I want toooooo! Must work damn hard to strive for this kind of future! Of cause, new year resolution is up! Hope I can do it! Blah blah! Shall post tmr again! Bb is having his awesome dinner w his family! :D Shall wait for him to be back. Lastly, I saw 2 rainbow straight in 2 days! Like a shiok or what! Lucky max! I'm so happpppy! :)

In this coming chinese new year! I hope things will change for me and is also a new beginning year for me to grow up. Things changed, human changed, but me, i still had to adapt to the surrounding and do what I should do or even telling myself what I should do! I shall not let anything to destroy what I want. Happy Chinese New Year Eve peeplos! :D

A night with love! :D

Ysd had a great night with my beloved boyfriend! :) No matter good or bad, with him alone, i felt that, it'll always be my best of everything. 

Happy day

Firstly, happy 20th birthday to my classmate & burden! Steven & sihao! Had been playing in class for whole day today & i pranked Sihao ysd by quarreling with him and then don't talk. HEHE. Funny max. Had war with this 2 birthday boy vs all people around them! After school stayed behind to help them w codes and seriously, how i wish this class don't end. Is really awesome! Joshua had been keep on saying he good bro w boyfriend. Like a seriously joke sia he! :D Rushed to meet beloved bb & met him at mrt! Went to cathay took his friend item and went off to plaza sing to eat dinner! At first thought he wanted to eat burger king end up he want eat his pepper lunch! Muahahaha! Walked awhile & headed to chinatown again. #likeacui sia! Keep on going chinatown like for dk how many days alr! Seriously! Close eye also know how to walk lah. Headed home at 9 because too heavy & tired already. Shall meet tmr! 

Though we can't celebrate our 24 together because i had my newyr going on during chu er and you got things on during chu yi. Our time like not together one. :( But of cause, after my thing, i will rush over find you if i got the time to run away kkkkkk! :) If you chu yi free, we shall watch movie together okay? I love you many. Tmr will be a happy day for us! :) Because I staying over! Muahahaha! Love you manyzxc, mr nai. No matter is good or bad, i still love you. I said i doesn't want you to ord and know new girls and be bestfriend w them. I knew i'm selfish. You asked me to trust you like how you trusted me with so many guys bestfriend around me. But, you aint the one being hurt before. You will never know the pain, the fear. But yea, i'll try my best in the future k. That is the only thing i fear too much. Sometimes, i really hope you're my first love. So i won't go through so much... 

Ending of year 2 sem 2...

Last few days had been chiong-ing my assignment in school with hock they all. Even forgotten to eat. Like the wtf, some of my burdens even turn ill. Seriously jan, please maintain ah. Even no time buy new year clothes. Still left 1 more dress leh. :( Emo Shit. This sem, is ending soon. It seems like I enjoy almost everyday in class ever since it started.. 

Happy dating!

Had a happy dating day w mr nai today & I'm extremely happy! :D Went so many memorable places today & reminds me of us so much! :)

Super model vs shorty

Ysd was out w bb & there was a super model type of chio bu said 'nice stomach' while bb was trying to see if i full anot(playing) and i was instant stunt was she said that. Bb was saying did i get angry or not. Of cause a lil! But then, i got what rights to get angry w when she is a super model type & im a mini size typical girl. Of cause guys will have their eye aim on a super model.

But then, again. What if they got a super model girlfriend and dont they feel insecured that everyone seems to eye on their gf and what if their gf run away w other better guy? Whatever, isnt my problem at all.

But short also got good point what. Bf no need to worry gf wear heel will taller than them, they can rest their arms on their gf shoulder and short gf is cute. Muahaha. But my main point is, no matter you is prettaye outside & a skinny figure, if your personality sucks, you still look ugly. :)

I love being short & being cute. So why some skinny model have some ugly personality? :) I no need to be prettaye. But as long as i wont look down on people, that will be the best of me. Muahahaha!

I wish you tried as much as I did.

Quarreled with love ysd and it sucks. I hate quarreling with him when he learnt his bad temper from me. Seriously i just hate him being in the army when there is so much things that caused all this. Teared overnight and I promised myself not to continue crying else my eye gonna swollen. I don't understand why everytime I cry overnight for few hours, next morning, my eye will turn out to be swollen like dk what. Seriously i can cry for whole night. Woke up with wanted to cry feeling.

I hate the idea of anyone else having you.

School basically having fun today. Keep on talking nonsense with sihao & abel till i can laugh till die. Had early lunch with them. During ppt was so damn bored till steven, hanwai & me was playing bingo using paper. Like a fun only. Played till last team end up kana caught. TSK. Then went off together with abel, joshua, annhock, hanwai & yuni to woodland mrt. Was talking with abel along the way. Headed to meet mammy at bpp bus stop & headed to chinatown. 

Was queuing up for dinner end up half way later my gastric wasn't that pain but head was freaking dizzy, wanted to vomit. Keep on wanted to faint. Sit down and up again. Was my turn then bth, call mammy go take the foooood. :( Damn sucky! Lucky after i ate i feel so much better. Walked awhile & shopping with mammy! Love mammy ttmzxc! Went home at 9 plus. 

Can't wait to see you again on wed. I so wanted to stay overnight again. It was fun to have you whole night talking nonstop till we fallen asleep & bringing me out for supper or breakfast. Had some talk with abel today. & he said 'You both pattern, no matter what will still together one lah.' Hehe. We both knew that, we're too stubborn to say sorry, but yet we want to stick together because we know we will never give up. :)

Doing pineapple tarts this friday & gonna do alot for us, sis, classmates, boyfriend & 1 of mammy friend which is my favourite aunty! 

You know it will be always you.

This 2 months, it seems to be so tough for us. Esp when, we had all the quarrels over & over again. Is it that, we're changing, or this is part of a relationship? I really hope none of us is giving up. I doesn't want to give up on this relationship.

If ...

If love wasn't that complicated, wasn't that hurtful, maybe i will have a lil more trust, a lil more faith, a lil more care, a lil more dote, a lil more happiness, a lil less sadness, a lil less quarrels, a lil ..... But no one can deny that it don't hurt, it don't make anyone feel like being on drug, being happy when having it, but without it, it feel so fucking hurtful. If I can able to believe that, no one will have bad intention of lying, betraying, backstabbing, maybe i might be happier, but no one can deny the fact that, once it happened on you, there is no turning back for you to believe again, this world gonna be like fairy tale story.

I doesn't need it to be fairytale story, I just need a man, a guy, to make me believe AGAIN, he'll never fail to make me believe not everyone around me will have the intention of hurting me, including him. It's really so damn fucking hard for me not to feel upset that, i might be a burden, i might not be the one that make him interested at, maybe somedays he will get tired of me. Of cause, i'm his first, he got so many choices, but why me. It make me feel that, maybe he step out, he might find someone better than me... But i can't find someone better than him..

Side is hurting again, goodnight peeps.

New Permed Hair, New Year!

Permed my hair ysd & seriously i don't like it. But right now already get used to it, i think, very soon? Lots of people saying that my hair is not cui, but i'm still thinking that my hair is like a cui sia. :( Sadist max. Shall get use to it very sooooon. Keep on seeing mirror non-stop till mammy buay tahan. Hehe.

Last Holiday

Had a bad bad cramp. :( Super fucked up by it. Lucky i was at bb's house & slept for awhile while he packed his army bag before booking in. Lucky I had him with me else i'm really gg crazy w the pain I'm having. Like a sian, had school tmr and I had to go school with this pain. Pray hard for myself. 5 more days to see my bb.

It has been sucha long time I didn't see him for so long. Gonna adapt to without him for weekdays again. Had been spending our dec keep on eating and realize we gg to be fatty bombom. Omg. Gonna go for jogging on friday while bb had his RTT on friday. Pray hard that he pass! :D Going to sleep sooooon. Btw, sis gave me iphone! Shiok max. Love big sis ttmzxc! Need to wait till saturday to see my bb. I'm lil regret that i ruin alot of date we had. Well, I'm not going to ruin more. Hot date, i'm coming! :D Wo yao pator w you!

Happy New Year Everyone!

Finally got time to post! Muahahaha! Went to genting for 4 days 3 nights w bb's family & went to uss w bb for countdown during last day! Really enjoyed myself for the full 1 week w bb! :D