Genting in another 4 hours.

Not going to sleep yet. Currently at bb's house & gg genting with his family tmr. When i stepped out of my house, i was lil don't bear leaving mammy at home. Started to get upset and cried. People might think i running away from home. LOL. Reached bb's place not long and started to cry like crazy. LOL. Seriously worry alot for mammy. Maybe i was the smallest, maybe i depends too much on my mammy. But maybe that she needs me alot too. :( Well, bb had a hard time making me smile from just now. Shall stop making myself wanna cry. I wanna be happy. Bb playing ps3, and shall go for supper later at mr prata! 4 more days to go. I wanted to enjoy, but i worry too much for mammy. I wonder what will happen if i needed to go oversea for school, or even married..

What is love?

A student asks a teacher... "What is love?"
The teacher said "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back... But the rule is 'You can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick'"
The student went to the field, go through the first row, he saw 1 big wheat, but he wonders.. Maybe there is a bigger one next..
Then he saw another bigger one.. But he thought may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him..
Later when he finished half of the wheat field, he starts to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw.
He knew he had missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand..
The teacher told him "This is love.. You keep looking for better ones, but later you realize, you have missed the right person,and he/she won't be with you anymore.."

So sad, but true.. Sometimes, people wanted to find someone better than the one they had right now because they are sick of the current one and usually take granted of what they had. But after what they lose it, they realize that they're still the best they ever had.. Sometimes, don't take granted of people who love you or even you love. Maybe once you lose them, that is forever..

Happy Birthday To Me!

Weehee! It's my birthday today! Had celebrated ysd at festive hotel and of cause I thanks bb for opening hotel for me & also this beloved present from him! Thanks those who came & also those gift from them! A lil hangover but shag max! :(

The girl who want everything.

Sometimes, meimei just want to have both boyfriend & family to be together. But at times, time doesn't allow her to have equally time for her mammy & boyfriend or even friends. She cherish every single time w her mammy & also boyfriend. But she just don't want to leave either one of them alone. She wanna to stay w both of them. But really so hard when either one of them doesn't understand how important both are to her. Maybe meimei is still small. But it was her mammy that she love the most & it was her boyfried that she care the most.

Sometimes, she just hope that she can separate herself into half to accompany both of them. But she is sucha loser to be selfish at times to sacrifice one. Meimei want daddy mammy to be happy. She want spend equally time w daddy mammy & boyfriend. Maybe it is not meimei fault for being so rely on her parents or even boyfriend. But maybe it is how important they are to her.

It is really tiring to balance both boyfriend and family for her. She is lucky that some of her closest friends understand. But sometimes she really want to respect all the elderly she met or even know. She knew that she had too much problems to handle, but she will never want to trouble others. Sometimes, meimei just want everyone. She is greedy. But this is life. She can only wait till she can spend her time equally, w parent & boyfriend.

You can say she is a mammy girl or even a boyfriend girl. But she just don't want them to feel neglected by her.

Sincerely,
 Their daughter, his girlfriend.
 Xoxo

Imaginary thinkings

I hate those imaginary thinking when i'm bored which caused me to think too much for a relationship. I hate overthinking which destroy me & my mood. :( Tsk. I don't think that only me is like this, I guess? I really want to be happy for the most december but I don't know why my mood was going all the way down. Feeling so bad for it. Really so hard to be me. It wasn't easy at all. Hais. Shall stop all my thinking. It suppose to be a happy month. I wanted to be happy. But realized that, the more you expect, the more disappointed you get. But the more you don't expect, the more happy you are, isn't it? :) Well, I wasn't a good girlfriend, no matter towards my boyfriend or towards my girlfriends. I wanted to be a good one, a really good one that they really love or really dote. I knew they did despite all those disappointment and nonsense i brought to them. I really appreciated those who stay. Shall really be happy. Next week is a happy day! :)

Stay happy, junting. You suppose to be stronger than anyone.

Buffet At TripleThree!

Had our triple three buffet! Bb brought it earlier on & went today! YUMMY! But not as yummy as carlton hotel one! HEHE! Happpy max & full max! TSK! Keep on spamming salmon & there don't have bb's oyster. :( What a fruitful day!! 

Celebrating Birthday At Zoo With Familyship!

Zoo with my CGS(CrazyGirls) today! Exremely kisiao & tired. Headed to zoo meet both of them & headed in. Jitao hyper at the beginning, end up started to be tired! Then sit down open my precious present from both of them!

Holiday!

Self-declared holiday for tmr because too lazy to study for MIS! :x Going to head to tamp to see doctor then going town with bb tmr! Got good news & bad news! :/ Good news is, i'm celebrating birthday with bb & my friends! :D Bad news is, bb wasted money to book it for me. :( Told him not to book already. Tsk! So called all my close close friend! But c&k cannot come because c gg oversea & k don't dare come alone w all she dk de. :( So.. Okay loh. :) Hope they don't last min dua me! Happy little girl. This friday going zoo with c&k to celebrate my birthday! I had a big big smile on my face! Weeheeee. Blahhh. Nothing to do now. Bb having his training naozxc. Bored max!

No monday bluez!

School sucks today because it's pb lesson. SKIPPED. Went to meet up with bb at his hse there de bus stop & headed to mac meeting joyjoy DJJ & hj! Ate fillet O fish because i was too hungry & tired. :( Then off to rent bike! ^^ Bb rent bike while me & DJJ rent rollerblade, hj got his own bike! :D Me & bb is really a joker at there. Think DJJ & HJ can laugh like mad le. HEHE. Headed to give our rental back & off to drink mcafe! :D YUMMY! Then started to be tired because of 1 hr exercise & going to doze off anytime. TSK. Off to pei them eat & went to rush over tamp to buy bb's jacket! His red was oos! Saddening! Walk awhile & brought pasarmalam chickenwing! YUMMY! :D Then back home! :D Tada! Tired max alr! Byeeeee! ^^

Eclipse day!

Not a fun or happy day today because bb was talking nonsense for whole day because he was too sian without sleeping after his guard duty. TSK. :( SADIST sia. A little turn off. 

A special day for me!

Went to eat lunch with mammy ysd(tuesday) & seriously is pissing me off, Whatever. Think i'm having PMS this few days. Headed to woodland & meet my precious boy! Headed to tampines & brought my thing! HEHE. A mini thing for my girlies. :) Went back hm & I threw temper again. :( Thanks nainny's mammy for cooking fried popiah for us which make me like a happy little girl that eat so many! Omg, fattening~! But yummy! :D Rested awhile & boy was busy with his thing & sticked to computer while me being bored wanted to go see last time i give him de present & miracle-ly, I found my present! :D Keep on laughing non-stop & he din't notice I was laughing non-stop till i open the box & found earring! Gave him see & he got the surprise failed face. HEHE! 'Kay siao' put it back & said, 'dk whose one. I put back le ah!' Then he uturn & said is for me. WAKAKAKA! Cheeky me! Wore it & really damn prettaye! Like it max! Keep on chao him ask him hw much. HEHE. Look like real diamond but is swarovski crystal!

I'm missing you, terribly.

Had swollen eye this few days & picture is like a cui. Using my hand to cover my eye! :D #epicmax. Hehe. I know i know. Waiting for my eye to recover only! Sis gave me a burberry bag! Nice or what! Love her many! :D One & only pic with boy below for this week which is the NICEST. :( Had to avoid seeing my left eye! Like a burden! :( shall take more pictures starting from next week! Hehe. :) 

446 days of waiting

It has been 1year 2 months & 20 days, 446 days, that we had gone through army's life. We spend more than half of our relationship with him in his army life. It's really amazing that, i am stronger than what I am. Times & times thought that we might give up on this relationship just sooner or later when we're together for just 6 months. Still remember when we're walking at ecp in the midnight, met a bunch of strangers, they are praising my boy that found a PRETTAYE girlfriend.(Kkkkk, Not that prettaye, but still cute kay.) & we were holding hand throughout our time there. & they pulled boy to a side & told him '90% she'll leave you when you're in army.' After we walked away, boy told me & i just felt damn angry for no reason. Maybe they don't know me well & judge me by my cover. But well then, I waited. Another 6 more months, my boy will be out & will be studying for our future. He told me to trust him, he'll not do anything stupid to lose me. Having him on every weekend is sucha bitch. I only got 1 day with him, and people got tons of days with their boyfriend. :( Whatever! There's people suffering more. Shall be happy! ^^ 6 more months and i can see him almost everyday. Or maybe days will be harder for us? Idk too. Dec is a happy month! I shall be happy for a month then. Bye! 

Another 6 more months to go. :) I don't care who judged me for who I am to you or even telling you all sort of stupid things to you. But as long as you are the one who matters to me, now & my future. I knew good times & bad times, we'll stay strong together(Even though at times I want make you angry by saying i'm giving up.) Love you manyzxc. I'm just afraid losing you..

I waited centuries to marry you. -Edward

Watched twilight ysd(saturday) & is really amazing! Make me teared. I mean, the saddening part where jacob thought that Bella was dead. Isn't it sad, when the person you loved like for 2 years or more & she's the one that give you hope yet she love another man, & she is having another guy babies, then, she just dead, because of the baby. It just kill jacob that much that, he can't have her, but he's connected with her. Really kill me much when watching this show & get emotional. HEHE! I want to be as blissful as edward & bella, I want boy to love me as much as edward love bella. It's like, how amazed that i met him just like how amazed that bella met edward. Though it was just a show, but, it's so touching! :D:D:D Some people are meant to be together, no matter what happen. Too early to say that, we're just together for 1 year gg 9 months, but, i felt like, he's totally the one who understand most. 

Headed back to boyfriend's house & slept on bus. Jitao sleep like free siaaaa. Even can slide down the chair yet i still want to sleep. Lucky boy pull me up again at his shoulder & continue sleep till reach his house. Reach his house jitao so awake. BURDEN. End up nua-ed & headed out to drink our paradise inn souppp! YUMMY YUMMY! Recently keep eat 1 meal, dk is i kisiao or what. TSK! Ate dinner & headed to tamp walk! Like a bored. End up both of us kisiao. Dk why. LOL! Headed to woodland & walked awhile before heading back home. Seriously! We both are crazy till we play in front of the crowd! This stupid boy still 'comb' my head! TSK! Keep on bullying him non-stop. Tgt with him really can laugh my 6pack out already. HEY BOY, You're lucky my 6pack haven come out yet. Arbo you will jealous. HEHE! Played enough & headed back home! Can't wait to see him again on tuesday! :D Lucky my swollen eye hao already! Happy me! :)