Im glad that you're the one.

Went to meet bb at bugis today. Dont say i not goood! Went to iluma and treated bb champion ramen! Ate what bb want me to eat while he eat his. Mine nicer than his! Muahaha! He had been complaining not nice and i had beem complaining stomach cramp. Went down to koi and bought his milktea. I treat again k? Aint me sweet for valentine day? Dint buy him anything but do him a pop up card! ^^ at least got effort k! :D

Recee Course is beginning soon...

Bb seems to have his training again today and I has been rotting at home for whole day. Like a sian. Caring enough not to disturb him. Even if I did, he also won't able to reply me or answer my call. Hehe. Xiguan jiu hao kkkkk! Had cried to sleep ysd while missing my camera. Shall wait replies from DM and see how they going to deal with it! Currently no camera to use anymore. Gonna use mammy de sony already when I go out.

Recee course is starting soon for bb. Or even started already? This 2 months seems to be the most fierce and he need to endure the most. I knew I can't do anything, but i hope he'll be stronger than before. :) I know he'll! Worried he might not eat when he go for outfield. His mouth like make of gold de sia! Valentine is coming next tuesday, but i can't able to spend it with bb because he had his army, valentine day also is nothing. Everyday is valentine as long we're together. I don't care! HEHEHE. Hope tmr bb will book out early and pei me!

Blah blah blah. Gonna cook dinner later on. So many things coming up soon. Valentine day, 1 year 11 month, internship, 2 years anniversaries. So fast, we're reaching 2 years. 未来的几十年，都一起过，好吗？

Feeling empty

Who could I blame when my camera was stolen? I feel so empty right now. Yes, i found, but is spoiled. Nothing could make me any happy other than my camera back to perfect condition that i used to have. You guys might think, just a camera, why so sad siol. HA HA. Yea, just a camera, but do you know how much money do boy used to buy this camera for me? How much effort he put into this just to see me happy & for my 2010 birthday present? Thanks thief, for spoiling everything, my mood, my camera, and of cause my heart. Seriously, i feel so damn disappointed and upset with myself right now. What else kills than this? I'm glad i gotten back my memory card. But sadly, not my camera. It's no longer perfect. Freaking hate myself for all this. So wanna cry again.

I hope he get his KARMA zillion times than what i suffering right now. I promise i will not soft-hearted. Since he dare to steal, i'll dare to report. 


Lastly, sorry to bb. :( I can't help but to feel sorry for losing camera, end up spoiled. Cried in the phone while talking with you, making you feel heartache by my cries. But I just can't help to feel angry w myself. I want my camera, so badly. 


Have you ever lose something that is so important to you that you cried and wanted it back badly? I do, right now, I really do.

Bad Ending Of School!

Seriously i hate today! Though i quite enjoy myself at the beginning? Celebrated hock & fath's birthday earlier on and had breakfast with caiting, abel & sihao! Enjoyed. But when we came back for those pranking, cake is lost? My camera also lost? Started to panic and thought somebody took the cake and camera together. But realizing that no one took my camera but the cake? Jitao cried and went to the other empty classroom. Called caiting come and cried even jialat. Seriously, that camera is bb who bought it for me, how could i lose it? Cried like fuck and told bb i'm real sorry for losing the camera.

Went to security office there to request to check CCTV but seriously the service is slow. Went back to find dm and requested to ask the suspect down because we suspected someone who took it. He damn pro sia! Went in class and said he took a camera. Can told abel and sihao that he never took it and even if he took, camera also cannot see the angle. Seriously are he going to be kidding me? Thanks to Hock, Abel & Sihao for helping me talk. I also don't know why i jitao become speechless and dk how to say about how it happened. Went in room with Hock while Abel and sihao went back class for lesson. Wrote report and bb called. Talked to him and cried again. Jitao paiseh cried in front of hock. Tsk. Wrote report till half and that guy was behind us. A lil guilty plus scare but i also dk why i'm scare and guilty of when i'm the victim. Soft-hearted again lo! But i know i shouldn't be guilty about when i'm the victim!

Thing goes on and... i gotten my camera back! But sadly it's no longer working. Disappointment again. So i request i want compensation. HELLO? Is bb who bought for me, somemore is $269, do you expect me to let things go so easily? I'm real sorry if i caused him can't graduate or whatever shit, if he never hand so itchy, all this won't happen. Had listen to bb, mammy, hock, sihao and abel's advise and decide that, if he don't compensate me, i'll make police report towards that guy.

I really don't want to be so mean, if i bought it myself, maybe i won't. But it's a camera that bb bought me for my birthday. Even if lets say i make spoil myself, i'll blame myself. But no, is spoiled under other people hand, is a thief. I still take photo using my camera before that. Seriously? Back home and called mammy open door. By hearing my tone of calling, my mom asked me what happened and i told her whole story. Mammy also call me report. TSK. Wanna cry much. No appetite to eat today too. :( I'm really glad that bb din't blame me for losing the camera that he gave me. Kana scolded by burdens only people like me will feel guilty. Dumb or what? :( Really happy that i knew who is the one who cared, & who don't. Sad is, my camera is spoiled and idk what to do. :(

Really sorry to bb that i lost the camera and ended up spoiled in the thief's hand. I'm really sorry to bb. This is my birthday present 2 years ago, but i lost it. :( Sucha failure. But lucky i found it. Even though you din't blame me for it or saying it's okay, but i doesn't want to let this go so easily. It's you give me de present. You also said that he trying to steal something that is priceless. Bb, i'm sorry. I feel sad too. But lucky found it. Now still investigate. All I want is to get back my compensation. Sorry boy...

Speechless today. Thanks those peeps who helped me so much today. & ct who anwei me so much and give me a big hug while i was crying. I wanna faster get over with all this.

Unhappiness

I don't know why do I still feel so much unhappiness right now. Had been being cold to him since i slept. He really been ridiculous last night which makes me fedup & ignored. But, how could you ignore someone you love when he can able to do it to you at times, but it seems a tough thing for me? Was still angry. But i played my itune, then this song played. "That's why you go away", "Ai hen jian dan". This both song, first song is, the song that we listened together when spending our first night at eastcoastpark talking, looking at stars, h2h talks, walking around. All this seems to be a part of memory that will never happen again in my whole life. 

Mood wasn't good at all today. But somethings happened that which me damn angry about. But whatever it's, I angried, but I still love him. I just wanna stop myself from angrying. Whatever shit it takes, I still did hold on right? But it's just not my day.

A happy day ysd & sad day today

Ysd celebrating Joshua birthday & seriously is like a joke sia. Keep on drawing his face. Like a boss without him running away and let me draw, maybe is let us torture him! Given K&C see the video and seriously they thanks god we're girls! My birthday i din't kana anything, but their birthday kana till. Hmmm. TORTURE MAX. Lucky i'm girl. HEHE. But this year birthday, i was being warned. Ahem~ *CLEAR THROAT* Gastric ysd night till now, is really seriously can't say it out to mammy. Else my ear cannot maintain.